Well…let’s see…it’s been 2 weeks since my last update. I think about writing every day but I don’t. Mostly because time is spread too thin. I need to write though. In fact, I need to do a lot of things for myself that I haven’t been taking the time to do.
Let’s start at the top of the list of things to update:
Diet: My diet has been up and down. I’ve found it very difficult to plan meals ahead. Not impossible, but difficult. I have been working about 60 or 70 hours a week – sometimes more – and despite being in Cali for a month now I still don’t have a routine established. Part of the problem is that my schedule changes day to day. I think in time even that could become routine – like, getting up at the same time every day, regardless of when my first appointment is. Not there yet though. I have been eating about 90% paleo, eating some seafood (but not primarily). Most days I’m happy if I have time to eat. I don’t usually get a lunch break so I have to train myself to bring food to eat. Hasn’t happened yet though.
My new job has its pluses and minuses. Plus: I really like the work itself. Minus: I don’t know how to do it yet, and they don’t offer much of a training program. I’m teaching myself, but not without numerous failures and embarrassments along the way. It’s stressful. I am having a hard time relaxing at the end of the day. Yoga, anyone? Yeah. Good idea. Too bad my track record of starting and sticking to things sucks these days.
Hormones: I’m in the 3rd month of BHRT. I don’t have a new doc yet, but my old PA appears happy to help me by email. I had a $400 blood draw last week (a standard draw for evaluating hormone levels in month 3, but I don’t have insurance right now). I’m having some problems like extra bleeding (a 2-week long period), breast tenderness/heaviness, acne, still not much sex drive (but really, who would given my current level of stress). The PA told me to increase my estrogen. I did, and the bleeding stopped…and then started again. So things clearly need to be adjusted.
Babykins – She’s started daycare, and really seems to like it. We were both so overwhelmed with our new jobs and new life that we let them feed her whatever they fed the other kids for the first 3 weeks – wheat, dairy and all. She is always tired when she comes home but she was starting to have tantrums every night. Inconsolable crying and thrashing around – and it wasn’t getting better on the weekends either. She looks forward to going to daycare, talks positively about it, runs up to the door in the morning, so it didn’t appear that she was being mistreated there. It occurred to me all at once one morning that maybe it was her reintroduction to the standard American diet that was causing the problems. So this week we started packing meals for her to take to daycare, including grass-fed, gluten-free, organic everything. The first day she was still a wreck when she came home. But since then, she’s been herself in the evenings. Tired but not crazy anymore. Hm…… I don’t know why I still need proof. Part of me still has a hard time believing that everyone in the world is wrong about what’s healthy. If 9 months later I still have doubts it’s no wonder some people never come around.
Goals for today: Stick to paleo, bring food along, and do some yoga. Yes really.